How I Plan on Ruining My Life
Today I’ll be writing about How I plan to ruin my life.
I got the idea while listening to something that Charlie Munger (who is the Vice Chairman of Berkshire Hathaway) spoke about when someone asked him about his framework. His reply was along the lines of “Twist the question around and you’ll know what to do.”
I’ve been thinking about my future a lot lately. So I asked myself, what would an ideal life for me look like? But just thinking of all the possibilities put my mind in a frenzy.
This was when I decided to use Charlie’s framework, and twisted the question around to figure out what my life would look like if ruined? This post is exactly that.
I also listened to a podcast with David Goggins today, and that inspired me to write this as well. His mental fortitude and mindset to do stuff is honestly bar none.
So, how do I ruin my life?
Let’s start with my mindset.
My mindset would be that everything’s set and done, and that anything I do will not positively impact myself, or anybody else. In other words, I’ll have a fixed mindset. And because of this fixed mindset, there’s nothing that will inspire me to try something new. I’ll spend most of my time just wallowing away, blaming my past self for not starting anything, and just go back to mindlessly scrolling social media, or watching some rat shit on YouTube/Netflix.
I’ll have no respect for my time. I’ll have no self-respect to counter someone that meddles with my time. Because of all the things I mentioned above, I’ll always be around people who never have any respect for each other. I’ll always be around the wrong crowd, doing the wrong things.
I will not care about my body. I’ll think that my body will last forever and will let myself only eat junk food. I’ll lose contact with my friends that were with me in the ‘good ol’ days’ and get jealous of them when I see them succeeding in their lives.
I’ll never be of any worth to people, except as a punching bag.
And because of my mindset, I’ll never bring any value to anything I do.
Even if I get a job, I’ll stagnate. I won’t be willing to learn anything, I will not invest my time or money to learn something new.
If I get into a relationship, it’ll be one in which I’m there just because it’s much easier to stay in it than have something meaningful. And if luck would go my way, I’d probably just die young without having realized how much time I wasted, how much I had under my control, or how much of my life was actually mine.
Reflections
I understand this post is way darker and way more more morbid than anything else I’ve written.
This post was for me to see and to try and understand what I thought a life that’s not lived fully would look like, and a part of it (I think) stems from some insecurity that I may have. A thought that this path might actually come to fruition at some later stage.
Post Script:
Wow, this was quite the post for me to write. Although writing this didn’t give me much clarity on what the hell I’m supposed to do, it definitely gave me an idea on what not to do.
Thank you all for reading this. ❤
